Be Careful What You Wish For...you just might get it

I woke up. Is this possible? Can vampires sleep? I don't know what time it is, how many days have passed? Did I sleep or did I blackout? Am I being sent to hell now? Did the Devil delay my trip because he himself didn't want me?

Recovery. I have proof I'm still alive; there is light and I still can see the fibres of dust each its own. I can walk and breathe, and I'm starting to think I worry myself too much.

Now that I am coherent I'm starting to get bored. I know I could read a book like I did yesterday but I'm losing interest and this cabin is starting to make me feel claustrophobic. So instead of being depressed and curling up into a corner I thought it would be nice to get out and wander around the forest. I would've gone to a mall or something but I don't think I would have enough self-control, not with the state I'm in.

It's a nice day outside. The leaves are changing colour; it must be autumn. The things I smell are so distinct, every smell is significant. I smell damp soil, crisp leaves, and burning firewood. Everything is so fresh here, it's like a rehabilitation centre for vampires. I laughed to myself at my own joke. I guess I really am that lonely and maybe it's better that way. I know I am not selfish , in my life I remember being a selfless person that's why now I think things are better this way. This way is better in the sense that no one gets hurt (or killed). Even if it means I'm getting hurt and I know living like this will...--

Something just attacked me! Ouch! It's heavy! My head just got smashed against the thick root of an old tree. I blacked out for a little while then I was back. Actually, I don't think I wanted to open my eyes. Nu-uh, what if some weird creature tried to jump on me again?! No way I'm going anywhere. As scared as I was, I was still quite curious to what actually did hit me and so I took a risk and opened my eyes.

"She's awake," I heard someone say.

The young man sighed, "Jacob, don't worry you were just trying to protect us."


I couldn't see my face right now but I could only imagine what it looked like; shocked and awestruck. There it was, the man from my dream and the russet-skinned guy was there too! Just like in my dream! I couldn't believe it who--

--but he got to it before me,"Who are you?" he asked with a stern voice and a his brows furrowed.

I put all my effort into these words--so I as well could defend myself too.

"N-n-natalie." It wasn't till then that I noticed his icy cold hands were clamping my arms to the ground; I had thought it was a boulder or something.

"Why are you here? Who sent you?"

I cleared my throat only to notice the burning hadn't deminished, I thought it was just a deer passing by that triggered it, but now I can tell it's coming from the man in behind. It didn't small too good nothing I would bite. It had more of a perfumy scent, i somewhat liked it. So I just held my breathe and said,"I needed to move far away from human blood so I ran and I just ended up here, in this forest. What's that smell?"

"Oh god," the man in the background that I could soon identify as Jacob finally spoke, "not another one."

'Another one'? Does that mean another vampire? I'm not the only one here? Wait...now I recall, the man in front of me I identified as a vampire in my dream so...

"Yes, that's right I am a vampire," now he said this in a kinder tone. Wait a minute did he just read my mind?!

"Yes," he replied with a smile. "Are you a newborn?"

"Newborn? I guess if that means I was...within a few weeks then, yes."

He offered a hand to lift me up and I took it without hesitation.

"You look young, how old are you?"

"Er, umm..almost 17."

"Hmm...who created you?" he asked in a more firm than kind tone.

"I-I-I...I don't know exactly. It was dark...it was in an alley...so scared." I went into freeze mode thinking back to these memories, if they are still there I know it must have been bad.

"Okay, it's okay. But you weren't in an army were you?"

"What?"

"An army, a vampire cult?"

"Oh, n-no of course not."

He went stiff all the sudden. He stopped breathing and starting examining me with his eyes.
"What? What did I do?"

"You are alive. You have a heartbeat. You have blood. And you have venom."

"And she has hands and she has feet...yeah it's a little obvious." Jacob said and then he went stiff too, "Oh, I get it."

The beautiful man took a deep breath, "Carlisle will know." Even though he was talking to Jacob he kept his eyes on me the whole time. I guess he thought I might take a chance and run for it.

I was so confused. Ever since I came here everything started moving at ludacris speed. It seemed like I just got here and already I find myself going to another vampire's house! Didn't I just a second ago think there was no one else but me? I s someone watching me and even worse, tapping into my thoughts?!

Dreams

If I was still a live human right now I would say I was tired. This whole week I've been suffering--and I deserve it. I never knew it would be so hard. The point is, now I made it, I'm in the middle of nowhere to be specific. I ran the whole way making some stops on a herd of deer on the way, and for the record, they taste horrible!

I spent the whole rest of my day finding somewhere to stay. Finally, I found an abandoned cabin and decided to settle in there. It was no problem, I didn't need food or blankets to sleep, to me this cabin had everything I could ever need...except for a cure to this never ending thirst.

The next morning I noticed something in my cozy little cabin that I did not notice in the dark of last night. I found a bookshelf full of books. Now, I don't remember too much about my other life but from looking at the titles of these books, I can identify them as classics. So, to keep myself distracted I started to read.

Just from looking at the backs of some books I could tell I didn't like them. I managed to finish reading a book called "Pride and Prejudice" which I've grown fond of.

I also noticed something else that was weird, all the rest of the rooms' doors are locked. This cabin is so nice, I don't know why anyone could ever want to just leave it. And another thing I don't get is that it is in perfect condition! It looks as if it gets cleaned everyday! Wait a minute...what if someone does still come here? What if they came while I was out...oh no. It's not possible. I'm probably just thinking too much.

I don't know what time it is but it's still dark outside and I don't know what just happened. All I know is, I was in the living room when all of the sudden my eyes are shut and I'm not doing anything anymore. This kind of reminds me of something I used to do when I was alive, I think they call it 'sleeping'. Anyways, after my eyes shut I felt nothing and saw nothing but bright colours and blurry images. Then I saw a clear image, it was a beautiful man with brownish-bronze spiked hair, he was wearing a blue shirt and had a concerned expression on his face. I was puzzled, why would this stranger be concerned for me? I don't remember him, did I know him before? But then I was surprised, I saw a picture flash in my head, it was of me lying on the ground! Then, the picture shifted back to the beautiful young man, I was starting to like this dream now. This time the image got clearer and I noticed a different face in the background, it reminded me of a smell and I hated it...but I liked it at the same time. The person I was seeing in the background had nice rusty native-indian colour skin. His eyes were a deep brown and he looked like he was worried. Another thing I noticed was he had no shirt on and only sweatpants. He had shaggy dark hair--the way I like it. Uh-oh, his blood, his heartbeat, he is alive but something gives me the feeling he isn't like the other humans. His body is hotter, you could put an icecube on his back and it would melt in a second. That was another thing, the guy in front of me had cold hands, no heartbeat and pale skin, must be a vampire.

What a dream! It might seem crazy but, I wish it was real, then at least i'd know i'm not alone (as a vampire and as a social citizen to this earth).

The Beginning

In the beginning, I thought there was just me, I thought I was alone and that there was no others with me in this hell. I am a stranger. From my eyes I do not deserve the gift of company. I am a monster. No one should have to deal with this burden. But I am not alone. As i've always known it, my life is filled with challenges and my after life won't be any different. I can't stay here, in the place i've always known, a place I always thought of as safe. I am not alone, so I must go far away before I become the danger no one knows. It wouldn't take much, and you would not could not possibly be able to know this, to take a life, to take yours. I make you feel so comfortable, safe. My voice sounds warm and comforting and my actions are so smooth and delicate, just enough to get you caught in my web. So stay away...or be dead.